Archive for August, 2011


I feel like I have to pinch myself!!! The Universe is actually opening up and showering me with blessings. When I say the Universe, I mean God and the laws of nature that I am learning to live by. 

Letting go is a constant struggle for me. I have to keep learning the lesson over and over again and I guess I will keep repeating myself until I get it right. Well, today, I have it right. Are the stars aligned or am I just aligned with the way things “work”? I only know that when I begin my day with the belief that I am able to create my life- that was God given- by starting with gratitude, staying with gratitude and ending with gratitude, it feels like a floodgate of “good” things happen that are aligned with my goals. 

That’s where I am today…so grateful. It is just wonderful to be in the NOW!.. and then I start getting nervous about what is coming tomorrow and I want to hold on to what I have today and… there’s the letting go thing again. Quite simply, life is an ebb and a flow. It is all part and parcel of the same thing. Without one, you don’t have the other. So that’s where acceptance comes in. Accepting that there will be “good” days followed by “bad” days ad infinitum…and it is how I live them that counts… that becomes my legacy.

Oh boy, it’s hard to let go! But having a death grip on life doesn’t work!

I have been called over controlling, over achieving, overbearing… You name it.  Excessive is my middle name. I’m either in or I’m out…up or down…yes.. It’s true… I HAVE CONTROL ISSUES!

I learned a long time ago that letting go can literally save your life. I had to do it while practicing stalls in an airplane alone as I saw the ground spinning towards me because I was trying to MAKE the airplane fly. The harder I fought the laws of nature the closer I came to crashing and burning.

It doesn’t take long to figure out that if you keep doing what you are doing you will keep getting what you are getting, but try remembering that in an airplane as you are about to dig a hole 20 feet into the ground.

Sometimes we have to do things that appear to be counter-intuitive.. just trust the laws of nature and LET GO. The truth is, we control nothing in life and that is precisely why we keep trying to MAKE it go the way we want it to go.

I lived to tell the tale of my terrifying lesson on letting go that day so long ago by taking my hands off the yoke and allowing the airplane to do what it was made to do FLY…and trust that aerodynamics wouldn’t decide to take the day off. That doesn’t mean that I don’t forget it every now and then, but I now have the ability stop, choose to correct early and remind myself that if I just let go…I can fly!

Patience does not come easy for me. In fact, I believe it is one of the main lessons I am meant to learn in this life. Sometimes I remind myself of an exuberant puppy that simply can’t contain itself when the dog biscuits come out.

When I was a little girl I couldn’t wait to be 12. That was how old my cousin was when I was 3 and she was everything I wanted to be. It seemed like it took forever and then when I finally got there it wasn’t all it was cracked up to be and I couldn’t wait to be 18 and then 21 and then…WHAT HAPPENED??? Suddenly, I was 30 and then dreading 40 and… I have spent a lot of time impatiently waiting for or fearing something that I barely got to experience when it finally happened! Thank God it’s not too late to stop and smell the roses AND the garbage right now.

I don’t want to go to bed early and sleep late. I am done with thinking about the past and the future and missing the now. I want to savor and experience my life, the good and the bad, with grace and dignity in spite of living in this age of instant gratification.

So, I am patiently creating my Lifeboard to help me create the life of my dreams. Rather than daydreaming or obsessing on what I want or don’t want, I am using my Lifeboard to free myself from my own limited thinking. The process is helping me to slow down and take time to contemplate and cultivate the seeds I am planting. And, even though I want it all now, I know that a beautiful garden takes time, care and, yes, patience, before we get to see what grows. And like a garden, my life is growing, unfolding and in constant change with my feet firmly planted in today.

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